2013.

From the moment I found out I was pregnant, I kept thinking to myself, "Next year I will be a mother, someone's Mama." Even though I knew I was pregnant, the idea seems years away. I couldn't really grasp it. Next year always seems far away, even if it's only a few months.

And now, I will be a mother this year. I will be someone's Mama in 4 short months. A tiny, wriggly little person will need me for their entire existence. This year. Soon.

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I was ready to see 2012 go. I started off 2012 continuing with my terrible Crohn's flare-up. I was on steroids, terribly sick and not getting better. After x-rays, CT scans, exams and a colonoscopy, I was ready to start Remicade. Aka, the Big Guns for Crohn's. I started Remicade in April, and was in immediate remission by May. Not before I used all my 2 weeks of vacation time at work for hospital visits. Shouldn't there be some kind of "hospital time?" Because using your vacation time for hospital visits is certainly no vacation.

In April, Jeremy and I went to New York City for Eric and Barrie's wedding. Even though I was super sick, it was still so much fun. I loved New York, but I would never want to live there. So crowded and expensive, but beautiful and so much fun to visit.

On August 21st, the very best thing of 2012 happened - I found out I was pregnant. Even though I wanted a baby, it was still a huge shock to see those 2 pink lines. It was overwhelming and wonderful and scary and shocking and beautiful.

In September, we moved to a new, bigger apartment in Evanston. Even though we miss living in the city a little, we love Evanston. We have a 1 bedroom apartment, so this baby won't have his own nursery, but I'm not concerned. He's a baby. Our new apartment is airy and big, and in a lovely and quiet neighborhood. With a park right around the corner.

In November, right before Thanksgiving, we found out this little kid is a boy. I knew it was, but my feelings were confirmed. We are over the moon.

So 2012 hasn't been the worst year, but I am more than ready for 2013. I know it's going to be one of the best years of my life.